I am going to feel so much better when all I have to worry about is my phd and running my world major marathons, instead of worrying about covid. Drinking expresso and building on my career instead of having a heart attack over a pandemic.

The other thing that is nice is not having to worry about my grandmother because she is in assisted living, so I can drive over to her after school instead of always worrying about her health or taking her to the doctor/ having a six year sleepover with them. I will be so happy with enjoying my grandmother on special occasions like lunch, racing and finally having the time to finish grad school.

To finally be making my violin recordings is another luxury to come this year. It is not like I have a sprint to have my life back, like it takes a year to have a documentary plus record my albums, a semester is a semester on a calendar, and my world major races are twice a year. It is sad doing my recordings was always put off, it was supposed to be my graduation present after undergrad, and I thought that I could do orchestra whilst working on grad school once upon a time. I never seemed to find the time, even as a graduation thing that was after being postponed after being away in Maine for school or watching gramma in Florida. All in all, it needs to happen. Now I have the time, and it is actually a good thing, because after a few more years of running marathons I can switch to violin on weekends gradually outside of church. However, I suppose settling on recordings this year, doing here and there performances will work for me presently. I really think recording my pieces, doing the Four Seasons Video will make me feel valid in violin, play Tchaikovsky for Lauren to dance to again by next summer. Opening doors for performing next year. You never know! Slowly and then all at once, it is so nice to finally be placed into the bigger races, have time for grad mathematics, date, hone my violining skills. I really did make a lot of sacrifices from 19 to 25 to watch my grandmother the way that I did, and I can only hope someone will like me because of it, and yeah all my things in life are still there for me now which is fantastic. I am happy I was with her instead of a stranger. Knowing what I want to do is helpful in seeing beyond corona virus.

With my life being back to normal, will be meeting athletes and interviewing them of course.

It is just good to know that I will have my life back to my standard of living in happiness. I think I fell harder this year than the year I almost died in highschool, but as long as I have it all back within this year I am going to be able to move on and experience things that will make me not care about 2019 or 2020. Nevertheless there is always a reason to be strong, and I am so confident there is a way to bounce back fast.