It is really depressing to have poured my heart and soul into my marathon career, and covid took trials&boston&NYC&etc away from me these past two years. If I run 2:30ish and 1:10ish the next year, I will be happy with my tenish year marathon career. I really left off in the marathon before covid with the intention of a half, trials, and Boston, my phd&mba. Covid really made me stubborn with my goals yet flexible with my methods. There just is not really a way for me to have my life during this epidemic and I am not willing to degrade myself. Hopefully my covidless races and covidless school happen pretty soon. I am honestly really struggling with keeping the hope of this all ending and life coming back to normal.

I hope to race November 7th without covid.