The Plan...
Today, on my ‘Sunday Run’ I felt a premonition saying “Do not worry about not running NYC and Boston last year and play your violin.” You know, I really feel content in my training and hopeful to run some very nice times this next year and a half, my coach and I really think that I can do it. I think that anytime you feel like it is ‘your time’ that does not quite go as planned can be very devastating, because you make yourself vulnerable giving 100% or pouring your soul into something, and for me that was hundred mile weeks for years on end in the marathon. It seemed like make it or break it and I ‘broke’ it, but I still have time and a place in my sport, thankfully. I feel like I can come out of this chapter alive and reach those goals that I have devoted my life towards reaching. With more years of experience in the marathon I feel like I am more comfortable with the distance and know more about how to race it well, the strategies I have now versus ten years ago are outstanding and such a game changer. A lot is going to happen for me in the next year and a half, and I am grateful for it. Slowly and then all at once.
I am so happy to be working on my, Four Seasons Documentary, as well as my violin album all this upcoming year. When you work towards something since you were 5 years old, and it all finally comes to fruition it is extremely gratifying. Honestly, I always thought I would be in orchestra in a major city and that would have been my violin life, but I feel fulfilled with playing my solos well and making a video of my favorite most admired piece I have always wanted to play well since I was a little girl. This will be a very cool process to share with everyone throughout this year, and hopefully the final outcome will be beautiful. At least my parents will enjoy it all. What will my four dresses for Four Seasons look like?! Those are the only four dresses Madeleine wants to pick out right now, I am in my glory with my new project!
This fall, I am very much looking forward to being back in my sport of marathon running and racing to run my new best times. Currently in training, I feel ready to run competitive times already, and I am hopeful to surprise myself in my Fall season.
The other thing I really appreciate especially after this year is being in person for my difficult graduate math classes, versus taking the gamble trying to do them online. After all of the work I have done professionally and in school, I really deserve an in-person semester for my math, because online grad math is not a thing that worked for me at all and I deserve the respect of in person classes again . Wow, I am not even embarrassed to admit online upper level math is not something in my capacity, like I never fathomed enduring that and in-person works so much better for this girl. I just hope my PhD replaces running in a few years. Life can only look up after this year.
