Better Late Than Never!

I remember when I took all my graduate school exams, and had my high scores. I was so happy that I could finally go somewhere bigger than where I went for undergraduate study. The compromise with my parents was not transferring out, and going where I actually wanted to for graduate school. Studying the subject I wanted to, instead of what snowballed from starting college in the tenth grade and already having two minors upon my freshman year. I thought that it would be the dream to go somewhere bigger, like where a lot of my friends played lacrosse and had the opportunity to study subjects like communications. I feel like all through undergrad, I was just waiting to go somewhere else for grad school, and that’s what I worked towards. Be more than a test score, even if you have the score, and sometimes you receive things in life later than you want them, but everyone evens out. It is not a never ending nightmare, eventually you get what you want, everything evens out or falls into place. Some of my lacrosse friends want to run marathons by the time they are thirty, it’s like we switched places! Running marathons is a very big accomplishment for women, especially by 30ish! It ended up being that my old lacrosse friends do not have an age limit on going to the bigger school for the degree you want, and I do not have an age limit on marathon running. What you want at 18 can happen by 30ish instead, and that’s fine. A friend of mine just played ‘professional soccer’ until 30ish and then finally obtained a more businessy job. I’m giving my old lacrosse friends run-buns and sports-bras, and they are giving me their old sweatshirts. In all seriousness, I love teaching my old lacrosse friends the best way to conquer a twenty six mile event, one of the things I happen to do well.

Not only the entire degree you actually want thing, but I drop the case without a settlement or going to court in the most inconvenient way possible! My little cousin finally mailed me back the ski-jacket she stole from me two years ago! WOW! I wonder what else she’ll mail back to me in the years to come… Do Marc Jacobs bags ever go out of style, like that jacket did? I miss my hot pink bra with lace flowers, and my cheap extra large bella pierced Swarovski earrings.  Can you tell the difference between real diamonds and Swarovski?  I keep them wondering in my professional years.  Will I get everything back one by one over the rest of our lives or did they sell it to buy cool clothes to wear around sorority girls in Florida? I completely understand feeling like you need to be a way around people, but I hope someone learned it can look more pretentious to not wear anything designer or expensive; it drives those girls even crazier than if you had the latest and greatest of it all, dates love that in dates, because it is very funny to make fun of the mean girls being mean. Just recently, I was talking to my buddy about an old party years ago where I wore something simple, and a girl whom wanted to date him made a whole thing about him just hanging out with me, instead of her wearing the couture dress specifically for his party. L'église de la Madeleine, has less pillars than their parents house, by the by, so I mean it whilst saying ‘wear something simple’, no one cares what designer made your dress or if your jewelry is real or imaginary. Imagine having a pillar for every week of the year just like L'église de la Madeleine, to make you feel like a victoria’s secret model right in northern Maine? That is what friends are for, perspective is everything, and it does not matter what you wear as long as it’s the appropriate look for an occasion. Who doesn’t need an ugly ski jacket? All I know is, I do not want to be a land surveyor in Alaska after that trip. I hate small float planes and being in the middle of mountains on islands I cannot leave for long periods of time, not having all the food and water I am used to having in the continental US, or running water and phone service everywhere, flights that are not canceled for days on end, lack of prim and proper gentlemen with an eloquent vocabulary and Nike shorts as a result of it being too freezing all the time. I also do not want to be a stunt skier, jumping out of helicopters, crossed off my list instead of skydiving. At least I finally had my flight, and never had to take a ferry to the mainland and drive all the way through Canada back to NY; good thing I had my passport in the event that happened. My bottom line is too many expensive flights were canceled with zero alternative, because of ‘fog’ I could not see for myself, and Terror Lake is a very unsafe place to go in life. What a temp job to celebrate college graduation that was for me, happy I had my full time job in NY afterwards where better pizza lives and I can go window shopping with my Aunt A. I love this bakery down there, my aunt brought me to for a strawberry cupcake on my birthday, on another birthday my mom tried to mail me strawberry cupcakes, but I had to throw them all away. All in all, I would never pick my horrible cousin in Alaska whom robbed me, over marrying the love of my life, nor let her be a bridesmaid or attend my elopement, ski jacket gesture of apology and all. I really do not need all the money and clothes and accessories she stole to survive, I can replace everything or write myself a check, but she needed to take responsibility and apologize for her sick actions; perhaps participate in some volunteer work similar to what I have out of love and true desire to help people versus punishment. All I could do for that girl is drop charges, appreciating an apology over a lawsuit.

I’ll take sitting in a chair and teaching, maybe research from time to time, coaching running and not running anymore.