Runner Feelings

Sometimes, running is a frustrating sport, and you go through emotional phases about how all of your work correlates with everything you accomplish. I’m not exclusive with the marathon distance, but I can let the marathon ‘gods’ know that and decide if I am going to run the time I want to and place top three, top seven, top ten, or top fifty. A runner may wonder if they are willing to have a certain relationship dynamic with their training, and not have everything they want, or wonder if a different event will give them everything they want if they feel a certain way with a special level of work. 5k, 10k, marathon, half-marathon? Where and how do we decide? Sometimes you want a break and do not have one, and other times you want to work through it all and have the race that never happens. However, in every runner’s career, some freak thing does happen, and you get everything you want. I hate to be flashy, but I have felt on top of my running game before, and I hope to feel that way again soon.

Sometimes, the ‘run gods’ tell you to do something else that is for you, three months into it you have everything you could have dreamed of, and you needed to let the event that was not for you go. Those ‘run gods’ just have to let you know one way or another, so you are not screwing around with the wrong event another year of your life. If you feel like you should have everything you want from devoting your entire life to something, like running, there is an event that will give it all to you! If after eight years this is the one you think that you would like the olive leaf crown, medal, party, a bunch of smaller race wins, and to add ten pounds to the amount you bench, then it is okay to switch events to make all that happen for yourself. Find the correct event that’ll give it all to you, and kick the wrong distance to the curb. You truly can have everything that you want, just keep praying on your dreams. Tell the event that’s not for you, “With a heavy heart, I am not doing this anymore.” Say it, because you can literally have everything you want if you are willing to work hard, and feel a certain way anyway. Take three steps back, look in the mirror and confidently say, “I can have all of my hopes and dreams come to fruition, because I work hard and those ‘run gods’ are going to give it to me!” Be positive and think, this time next year I will have everything I want in my running and family life.

Feel that you have the luxury in life to not feel a difference between practice and winning the race, feel nice, have that support system fill in the warm fuzzy gap between practice and winning. You should feel the same in practice that you feel when you win, and have the luxury of a support system who enables you to feel it; encouraging support through the process, exceedingly emotionally content the entire time. Sometimes, winning is figurative when you are really doing your best, reaching your personal goal, and it is more than fine. Ultimatums with racing certain distances is real, but when you commit to one upon making a decision it works out pretty well, because when you stride towards perfection you fall pretty close.

Sometimes, I just count my steps, and have no idea what that means.

The ‘marathon gods’ did not seduce me to ask if I was ready to become a marathon runner, before it happened almost ten years ago. At least that idea makes me laugh, nor did those ‘marathon gods’ count to three like in Sesame Street. I felt like my boyfriend must have turned me into a vampire while I was sleeping, after my first marathon. There is always an entity which does not take anything seriously and wants to sabotage something, but you just fluidly run by it. Rise above all the bad, focus on all the good. Everyone actually worth having respect from, probably has respect for you, the rest is history.

Running is the best looking sport, for sure.

Today, I felt very cliche running around listening to Josh Groban’s Christmas album!